I confess I was lost In the pages.

Sometimes, things inside doesn't comes out right.

Love is an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. Love is also a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection; and "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another".

Maybe it meant more, much much more than this. But that was when I met you, girl. When i realized a feeling was growing within me when I look at you without your notice. It didn't took me long to get near you, never a long way to start our path of love. Short and simple is how I described how we started off. Nothing fascinating about it. In such a short time, I fell in love with you. And that, it felt so comfortable. It's like, I'm going out with my clone. And there we were, on the 14th Oct '11. I felt blessed my love, I really did. My love grew stronger then, stronger and stronger each day. It grows like a living thing, fed it with more care and it grew again. Words aren't that strong now to describe how much I love you, it never will now. So this was how it went on. Like all the other relationships, like we all know, there's ups and downs. Just like the tides, there's high and low. And that it changes our feelings now and then like the days changes it's seasons. But I don't give a fuck. At the end of it all, Nurhakimah, you are still who you are. Life may be at it's best giving out problems and situations, obstacles and tests, but I don't give a damn about those. I believed in perseverance and endurance, gracious and patience. The most, I believe in you. For somehow, I know you are still someone worth it all, I know it and I know it very well. Something in me tells me that you are. On the other hand, Life too give it's best of joy and miracles, opportunities and success. I'm a Libra like you are, that's what we think. Balanced. It was said, heard by each and every mouth, no one here is perfect. I said, I'm sorry but, I am. I am perfect the moment you step in my life. Perfection. You are the perfectionist. You were all I ever hoped for. All that I have ever thought of every now and then. And when all I wish was to spent glorious times with you throughout my journey of life. I wish for no interference and no intervention. It's all I have ever wanted it to be like. All my wishes I when I had the chances of, it had you in it to go along with. Your name shall I pronounced in every wish of mine since we met. Further more, I don't really think it's all in God's hands, fate. We have a choice to make too. My choice that I've chosen, was to be with you if I ever met you. And promised him faith with you in return for HIS gift. he granted it, I met you somewhere in the mid of the year. It was a perfect timing. Everything falls in place like how you have it in your mind. I got pretty thankful and I'll keep my promise. So not to worry, it's not a choice for me to leave you. the choice I've to make is rather more about things we do or maybe the consequences of one's decision. And that represents care. Oh, I love how you care about me. It sends me this little ticklish feeling to my heart that makes me smile. It gave me a little bit of warmth and that I felt so comfortable with. Everything went smoothly until the season started to change.

(I don't want to list them out because it's rather useless actually)

Forgive and Forget. That's the reason why I skipped that part. Surely, I am very sorry for every wrong deeds I've done towards you. All those words I spitted out on you, I really don't meant it. And on top of it all, how my jealousy got me under control, selfishness, foolishness, stupidity and my thoughts of self-reflections. I am really sorry if I have never been good enough. But I'm trying. I'm trying my best to win everything. To make this at it's best where it will be a virtue not to us but all. I don't think it could happen but, it doesn't matter. Differentials plays a role too. I'll stop this post from here, I can't go on with it.

Stupid.

Oh no, I see, a spider web is tangled up with me.
And have I lost my head? The thought of all the stupid things I'd said.
Oh no, what's this? A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle.
So I turned to run, the thought of all the stupid things I've done.
Oh no, I see, a spider web and it's me in the middle.

So I twist and turn, but here am I in my little bubble. 

I never meant to cause you trouble.
I never meant to do you wrong.
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble.
Although I never meant to do you harm.

This is the time of our lives.

There's a time for us to let go. There's a time for holding on.
A time to speak, a time to listen. There's a time for us to go.
There's a time for lying low down. There's a time for getting high.
A time for peace, a time for fighting. A time to live, a time to die.
A time to scream, a time for silence. A time for truth against the lies.
A time for faith, a time for science. There's a time for us to shine
There is a time for mis-believing. There's a time to understand.
A time for hurt, a time for healing. A time you run, to make a stand.

Nolita Fairytale.

*Nobody ever loved me like she do me.

And if somebody ever really loved me, it will only be her.

I'm falling in too fast for the first time.

Don't you know it's gonna last?

It's a love that lasts forever, it's a love that has no past.

And from the first time that she really done me, she done me good.

I guess nobody ever really done me like she did.*

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide.
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide.
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies.
Over-saturation curls the skin and tans the hide.

If I could tear you from the ceiling and guarantee a source divine.
Rid you off possessions fleeting to remain your funny valentine.
I know the best have tried but, I'd fill your every breath with meaning.
Find a place we both could hide, I'd freeze us both in time.
Find a brand new way of seeing..your eyes forever glued to mine.

Surrender

Questioning her good intention for jealousy is a bad invention.
Even when she was defensive, it just gave me more incentive.
The more you squeeze, the more it slips away.
When you push on glass, it's bound to break.  
Wondered why I'm always in a good mood?
Even though I know what I'm looking for,
I'd travel time and confess to her.
I never had the nerves to ask.

14/10/2011

Sleepless and lightless, I've been waiting for you.
In secret, counting the hours until the morning sun.
How would you love now what's inside of me?
I wonder how we don't have to be anything else but this.
Need you and I feel you breathing on me.
Never felt us fading, I'm waiting for you to meet again.
I felt the light touch, will keep us together; satisfied.
You light up my path, speeding the hours. You heal me somehow.
Hear me calling, I'm going, seeking.
Time is flowing slowly when you're not around.
The heart is rifting, do make us willing.
You're spending up my hours until we don't realize it happening.